adj.numb·er, numb·est1. Deprived of the power to feel or move normally.2. Emotionally unresponsive; indifferent.
Every now and then, certain realisations resulting from experiences make me numb. You might be thinking that this is something negative, however this isn’t a bad thing at all, as it removes the emotional bias from making decisions. These realisations give rise to lucid truths which are often distorted by ones feelings and emotions. The vivid realities which are presented to us are so often ignored, the culprit can often be our emotions. We are only human after all and possessing a broad range of emotions is one strand which differentiates us from robotic objects.
Existing in an emotionally numb state has provided me with great successes in several areas of life, one of which is with girls.
Girls have tried to “win me over”, whilst others were intrigued by it. For me however, I felt nothing towards them and due to the modern sexual market place this lured them in further. The lack of emotions allowed me to evaluate them comprehensively, assess their benefits, and be critical of their flaws. It’s not everyday that you can treat another human being as a business transaction but being emotionally distant, allows you to see people in this light.
If you are ever fortunate enough strip away the emotions and memories you have with your lover, LTR, wife or friends, the residue left will allow you to understand the object value of their presence within your life.
The search for rich and meaningful experiences take people far and wide, some of the decisions which lead to these are emotional, some are purely objective and some are a combination of both.
Emotions will always be apart of the human experiences, pain, happiness, disappointment, regret, love, intimacy, friendship, shame will forever be engrained into humans. However, don’t ever take a period of being emotionally numb as a waste, it can often lead you to see reality without the murkiness of intangibles which misrepresent what you are really being surrounded by.